May 10th, 2017
The 56-year-old credits her two children as being the only reason she managed to come out the other side, after feeling suicidal with her symptoms.
The much-loved veteran presenter opened up about her battle with depression in a frank and tearful interview with Lorraine Kelly.
Speaking about her six-month battle in 2015, she revealed it was brought on by an imbalance in her hormones as a result of suffering the menopause.
She explained: ‘I didn’t have any other symptoms that a lot of my friends have had with the menopause – I was just getting on with it and powering on, and then this depression hit me, and I don’t use the word depression lightly.
‘This was a blackness where I would wake up – nothing else in my life was going wrong – I’m a very lucky woman, no money worries or nothing like that – and I would wake up and I thought, “I don’t see the point in carrying on. I just don’t see the point in life. I don’t see it.”
‘I thought I just want this feeling to stop, I’d do anything for this feeling to stop because I can’t sort it. And this went on for a number of months.
Lorraine then asked Carol what she thinks would have happened if she hadn’t managed to get help and seek treatment and Carol responded: ‘I suspect we wouldn’t be talking today.’
Admitting that even though life was good she still couldn’t shake the feeling, so much so that she considered ending her life, she added: ‘There was no reason to feel that way and the only reason I didn’t do anything, and I’ve not admitted it before, is because I have two children.’
However, after reading books and eating healthily, fortunately the former Countdown host realised that her low moods came in cycles and was able to see a professor that deals with bio-identical hormones and since she’s been taking her treatment for over a year she’s ‘never ever felt that way.’
Carol, who recently revealed that her mum is suffering from terminal cancer, added: ‘From the moment I took it [the medication] I have never ever felt that way [depressed].
‘I’ve been fed up, and obviously at the moment my mum is not well so I’m upset. But there is a reason for all of those things whereas before there was no reason for it and it was absolutely, categorically to do with hormones.’